Guilty

Music and Hearing loss

Springsteen, Maria Callas, the Blues Brothers and Angela Gheorghiu fill my (now unused) Ipod along with my other favourites.

Being a biker I’ve spent many, many, nights in bars where music drowned out the sounds of bikes, and Sue spent quite a few with me. Until about 8 years ago, when Sue’s Meniere’s became too much, she rode her own bikes – her Kawasaki 800 sits in the garage in the hope she’ll be able to ride again.

Back then Sue loved music and dancing and whenever one of my pals would oblige she’d be on the dance floor – I detest dancing! And she had the radio on whenever possible, I remember the last time she listened to the car radio, I walked back to Jazz Funk pounding out loud enough to drown the kids in their cars.

Now, obviously and sadly, music is gone for her, and I no longer listen to music much. Don’t go to bars at all now either. I just feel guilty enjoying what she can’t. We’ve never discussed this, she’d just say it didn’t matter and don’t be silly. But truth is the fun has gone for me.

Although I do listen to Four Extra on a personal DAB to re-enjoy my childhood via ‘Round the Horne’ and ‘I’m Sorry I’ll Read That Again’ etc. I don’t discuss the shows with her as it just reinforces what she’s lost. It just doesn’t feel fair. Anyone else feel like this? Oh, and lifestyle didn’t cause the Meniere’s.